So I went back to school in October. Given that I"m the sole breadwinner, I feel a ton of pressure to ensure I can stay well employed.
School's been going OK but this research paper from hell is kicking my can. Why did I pick a topic even remotely medical? Because I'm an idiot, that's why.
Anyway, that's why I never post anymore. Work, work, school, more work, school, oh and try to be a good Mom. That's my life.
My son is the sweetest little man in the world.
I had a really rough day at work a few weeks ago. I actually cried on the way home from work. I never cry. It's something that happens maybe once per year.
So I walked in the door and told Brent I'd had a crappy day and that I'd actually "cried all the way home" and then I went on with my evening.
Later that night Nate and I were brushing our teeth. He said, "Mama, you cried today?"
I said, "Yup."
He said, "You was in you car?"
I said, 'Yup. I just had a hard day at work."
He said, "You was by youself?"
I said, "Yes, it was just Mama in the car."
He said, "But I would be with you, Mama..." (with this sweet concerned look that I'd been alone in my moment of need).
Sweet boy had been thinking about that since he'd heard me say it and wished he could have been with me, even if it was just to provide moral support while I cried.
I've been debating for some months about whether or not to post about this. That's why it's buried in another post. We'll see who actually reads this far.
We've had some horrible things happen in Haiti in the last 6 months.
For starters, we actually had all our prayers answered and found a multi-millionaire whose goals were the same as ours who wanted to pay for everything for Bel Haiti. And I mean EVERYTHING. His first order of business was to get them out of the damaged, lousy building where they are in Petionville and out closer to the property.
Lets just say when it came down to moving day, Harry wouldn't move.
And then lets just say that we lost our sponsor because Harry wasn't willing to work with him. It's like the old saying goes, 'Beggars can't be choosers" and we can't blame him for moving on to find another Haitian orphanage that would help him reach his philanthropic goals.
And then, the new year started and we found out that the Haitian Government is seizing our land.
This is all the abridged version, but President Martelly wants anything worth anything to "help him reach his goals of educating all the children of Haiti" and after months of Haitian Roots negotiating in Haiti, it ended up that the President just didn't care what our goals where - he wants that land. Shows it was a good spot, I guess.
The bright note is that at least they're going to pay us what we paid for it.
Brent's having a really hard time. He's supposed to be focused on Bel Haiti full-time, but he kind of feels betrayed by Harry and Haiti right now. He's pretty patient, but he doesn't forgive (easily) when you do cross him.
So... I don't know what's happening in Haiti and with Bel Haiti. We've had such a tight year anyway and then to lose the two good things we had going....
I know Harry's been reaching out to others for financial help, so I felt it was time we at least discussed the abridged version with our reading audience.
Once again, Haiti makes me grateful for what we have.